I was talking with a friend yesterday, about how to tell what’s next for your life… how do you know?? If you’re truly following God, He will open and close doors… I’m just always nervous I’m not looking at the right doors. As it is, I feel like being open to doing ANYTHING He tells me to is the key. I want to completely surrender myself to Him. This is so hard, sometimes, when it hurts a little, when it hurts a lot, when it’s scary. But I’m learning that if I’m not in His will… that’s even more scary and hurtful. I would rather be so blessed by chasing Him, running hard for Him.

In the conversation, I told my friend sometimes I don’t really care if I’m at home in the States or not. It doesn’t bother me to be away. I asked if that was normal, and kind of laughed, but what he said really struck me. He basically said that he thought that it IS normal, and that if everybody would really step out of their comfort zones and really go for it in missions for the Lord, that they would realize that they feel “normal,” or rather, “at home,” away from home, doing the Lord’s ministry. The Lord has given me that peace, even when I do feel out of my comfort zone, and that’s one way that I can know I am in His will.

The whole concept is very relieving. I’m an excellent worrier. But I know that the Lord is caring for me always, and within that, I have realized that includes giving me His peace when I am striving first and foremost to let Him shine through me. It goes full circle… and suddenly I have nothing to worry about. Wow. :)

I just have been amazed, and I wanted to share, and to encourage everyone to really seek after the Lord’s will for your life in THIS moment; strive to be content, happy, joyful in Him, and as a result, feel His glorious grace and peace.

"whatever You're doing
inside of me
it feels like chaos
but i believe
You're up to something
bigger than me

... all i can do is surrender."
-Sanctus Real